This feeling I have right now is really cool.
With the great Mat Kearney as my iPod fueled soundtrack, I feel such peace and "lightness" after finalizing this decision.
Now, this might sound a little cheesy or egotistical, but I'm not writing this for a pat on the back. I just wanna be real and share for those that are reading and may care.
I posted an email to two of the three major parties other than myself in this situation, expressing my thoughts and making my choice and decision clear. I decided, since I'm iced in and working at home, that I'd use this opportunity to possibly teach my kids something. I told 'em to come to me and listen. It's not everyday that I make myself vulnerable to my kids, but I wanted to show them and I told them that their dad has problems, too. Difficult situations I have to deal with. I told them the situation, which they could understand, since they know a lot about the magazine. I explained my choice and why I was making my decision. One of my daughters interrupted me before I finished telling them I wanted to pray before I clicked on the "send/receive" button that would send those emails to their destination.
She said, "Treat others the way you would want to be treated."
Wow! That touched my heart. She understood so clearly what the lesson was. In humbling yourself, you might lose on one level, but win on an entirely different -- and more important -- level. Very nice.
I prayed and then we clicked "send/receive."
Well, at least one good benefit has come of this already. One of my friends called me and asked me who was pushing me around. At first I thought he was refering to the devil, since the first thing I mentioned once I got to the phone (in the other room) was my sore knee. Ha ha. It took me awhile to figure out that he read this blog. Another friend emailed me and told me he was praying for me.
He said: "Sounds like you've already seen this for what it is, an opportunity for growth and not just the negative of getting hosed."
So, there's another couple of benefits revealed (having friends that care). Very nice.
And let me say it again: Mat Kearney's music is an excellent soundtrack!
Posted by Doug Van Pelt at January 15, 2007 05:22 PM