Have you seen that commercial for some cell phone company? Sure you have. You've seen it dozens of times as you've been watching football the past few days...
There's a dad who asks his kids, "What did you get for Christmas?" His daughter and son both got cell phones. "And what did dad get?" His daughter mentioned aftershave. "No. Dad got hosed."
That's how I'm feeling right now. There are some behind-the-scenes things going on right now with my business that are underhanded. I won't share any details about it, because that's just dumb. But I will say that my business (HM Magazine) is getting shoved around and bullied by a bigger business. The options are all negative.
While I am not happy that this was dropped in my lap in an email late last night, I do rejoice that God is giving me a chance to become more like His Son. Even if I make the wrong choice and wrong decisions here, this process will help me develop as His Son. I hope that my choices and decisions will please my Father in Heaven. I'm also hoping that the bully-ing party will see the errors in their ways and change (repent), and an apology would be awesome. But even if they don't behave in the way I'd like them to, I can't get caught up in that. All I can control are the choices that I make.
I am bummed that I'm having to deal with this when there's only 3 days and x-number of hours left before I submit all my files for this issue to the printer, but I trust that God's will be done in my life, even if it's not fun at the time.
I hope no one involved in this reads this blog during this situation. If you do, I'm sorry that you saw this. I didn't post this for you to see or to fulfill any sort of passive-aggressive manipulation of the situation. This is more for me, and maybe God and maybe those on the outside who might possibly get edified by reading it, knowing that a fellow servant is struggling but trying to do the right thing. Maybe just that effort will inspire someone else to do the same. As for you, you can quickly close your browser and pretend you didn't see this.
:?)
To quote Stavesacre:
In just a little while
They'll wish that they were silent
ah! a man after my own heart!
quoting one of the most endearing and beloved bands of my music collection -- Stavesacre.
I don't care what kind of disappointment or disillusionment those bands members might feel, they tapped into some awe-inspiring stuff in those songs. Their first three albums should be revered in the Christian hard music library, and Speakeasy was a crowning jewel. Those lyrics...wow!
WORD!
Posted by: Jason Irvin at January 16, 2007 10:00 AM